Will you think you’re all alone when no one’s there to hold your hand?

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
And when they say just touch and go I wish I could make it go away
But still you say

Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent
I'm permanent

is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry 

 

David cook – Permanent.

 

Beautiful song! Did anyone watch American Idol? I was sort of disappointed with the results, I like Kris, don't get me wrong, but Adam has a BEAUTIFUL voice, and whatever he sings, it suits him. Did you see Simon's face? When they said Kris won?

Ha ha! Poor simon! I mean COMMON! You are on T.V LIVE! You should smile and accept the fact that they voted for Kris! Please don't judge me, I usually don't watch American Idol, but I did watch the last three or four episodes or whatever they're called! It was good!

Next topic: My boyfriend.

He's sweet, funny, and adorable! He's fun to hang out with! But there is ONE problem.

He is cheap. It gets on my nerves, I am the kind of person, who just spends money! I love spending it, he doesn't. He likes to save up money, and then he only spends it on one of the following:

• Football shirts.
  
• ART/Jazeera cards.
  
• Football shoes, training suits…
  
• ANYTHING THAT INVOLVES FOOTBALL.
  

I don't have a problem with that, really, but I would appreciate it if he would consider getting me something. I'm not asking for a Cartier diamond ring, or a Gucci bag or anything like that, but I like to be pampered every once in a while. For example, on our 18 month anniversary I got him a 55 KD fossil watch, what did I get? A thank you. So on Valentine's Day I got him nothing, hoping that he would get it, nope, he didn't, I got nothing for valentines. He's good friends with my cousin, so she asks him what he got me, and he answers "I am trying to find out what she wants." So ;* gets excited over NOTHING and in the end, she gets nothing. I cannot believe him. It's just absurd, I am a girl, I like gifts!

Secondly:

He has NO sense in fashion! He is almost 18, and he still doesn't like low waist jeans. I am not asking him to show his ass! I am asking him to buy jeans that are not so high, that his ASS looks huge! I'm sorry I'm mean, but it's the truth I am not going to lie to him, and tell him it looks good on him, when obviously it doesn't, even his friends and BROTHER make fun of him! It's the truth. He says they are comfortable! I just get angry and tell him to do whatever he wants cause I GIVE UP.

Thirdly:

His friends in university don't know that he has a girlfriend, his friends out of university don't know either, only friends that were in school know. Do you know why he doesn't want to tell him? Because he cares what people think! His parents don't know either, because they are religious. My mom knows, and all my friends do too. I feel like he just doesn't want to ruin his reputation. It's enough that he's a prude, and barely holds my hands. Ugh! Men.

Okay, I'm done ranting, in the end, I love him, and despite these things, he's amazing.

 

Next topic: friends.

I see my best friend, once a month, and if I am lucky twice! Amazing friendship right? Since she started university, she doesn't call, or ask about me. When I tell her that we should hang out she says okay, and that we will call me, in the end I don't get a reply. The next day she apologizes and says that she couldn't make it. It's funny how she changed. I hate it. I love that girl a LOT, but seriously you can't give me two hours a week? I'm not just a friend; I'm your best friend, oh well, people change.

 

Do you know what I want to do? Punch someone, because I feel like it. I miss the days when I didn't have to worry about anything, or anyone.

Until next time!

Lebanon.

Hellos there and how are you today? Good? Okay, so I am back from Lebanon! OMG it was amazing! You know going there for a long weekend, relieves stress!

So the first day I arrived at around 1.30 pm? Got to the hotel at 2-ish, we rested for a while, by we I mean my daddy and me. We changed, and went for lunch with daddy's friends, blah; I don't like them at all! We got back to the hotel at around 10-ish? So, we decided to go for a walk, we walked for an hour. Got back to the hotel, I revised for my exam and my dad went partying with his friends, and I slept.

The next day, we woke up at 6.30 (my exam was in Byblos, which is 45 minutes away with NO traffic) I washed up, brushed my teeth etc… went down stairs and had breakfast, and we were on the road.

I arrived at 8.20 am exactly, went upstairs, and waited at 9.20 the exam started, I finished pretty early at 11, and a couple of guys finished 10 minutes after me, they were so hot I must add, one was pretty tall, he was wearing a white shirt with a pair of light blue, low waist jeans. He had light brown hair and colored eyes Mashallah! His eyes were beautiful and he was so sweet his name was David. The other guy, Elie, he was wearing a green shirt with a pair of dark blue jeans, he was cute too, he had dark brown hair, dark brown eyes and a very cute smile! Most of the guys there were hot, yummy!

So we went to the cafeteria, ordered saj, and ate, we started talking; we had 3 hours and a half to kill! But they went by so fast, I messaged my boyfriend and told him to call my mom, and tell her that the GOD DAMN ROAMING wasn't working! STUPID ZAIN! I can't message or call to zain or international phones! Only wataniya! And he was the only one I knew who uses wataniya! So at around 1.45 my mom calls, and asks about my SE exam (sophomore exam) I tell her it was okay, the biology was a bit hard and the math had hard questions as well, but the chemistry was a piece of cake. She tells me good w 'allah ywaf2ek, w nshallah tenja7e'

I went into my English exam, right? It was the stupidest exam ever! It was so easy!!! OMG, so part 1A was filling in the blanks, part1B was which one was incorrect, and part 2 was comprehensions, and last but not least, was writing an essay, so it was pretty easy. I was the first one to get out of the hall, since, I am the only one in an English school, they're all French educates. So it is pretty hard for them. There's this guy who was sitting in front of me, he repeated the exam 7 TIMES! Imagine I would kill myself, if I had to repeat English 7 times!

So after the exam, I had to wait for an hour, for David to come out, so I can use his phone, I called my dad and asked him where the hell was he! He said "I'm at my friends house" I tell him to come and get me, so he arrives 30 minutes later ma3 inna it only takes 5 minutes, but I know him, he just does that, he says I'm on my way, and forgets *rolls eyes* so we go to his friends house in 3amsheet, and I say hi to everyone there, he has been friends with this man for over 23 years! They went to university together! Lunch was served at 6.30 pm! We ate, talked for a while, at around 8.30 we left and headed back to Beirut at 9-ish, we arrived, went back to the hotel, I showered, and my dad asked me if I wanted to go out, so we went to Rouche and walked around, then headed back to the hotel. Changed and went to a night club, and yes, my dad is okay with it, after all it is Lebanon, and guys there aren't douche bags! NO OFFENSE! While sitting down, there were two glasses, one was vodka and I thought the other one was water, so I drank from it. You know what it was? VODKA! Yuck! I was going to vomit! And my dad was laughing at me! I was going to kill him! Araf! We stayed there until 3.30 am, went up to the hotel, and fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up, and cracked my neck like I always do, but I cracked it wrong! It was very cold in the room as well, so I couldn't move my neck to the left nor to the right, it's still like this by the way ouch! I went and brushed my teeth, washed up, and called my cousin and told him to come and take me, since my dad went to Jnoub, to see my grandma who is staying with her siblings, and then he went to our "day3a" not my grandmas, and stayed there. My cousin came at around 2, so we decided that we would have lunch bel rouche, and then walk around. We had lunch, and went to a café nearby to smoke sheesha <3. After that we headed back to the hotel, since it was Sunday, and everything else was closed. We hung out for a while and then decided that we should go watch a movie, so we booked the tickets, and at 7.45 the movie started! 'angels and demons' it was a good movie, but I liked the book better! The movie finished at 10.30, I said bye to my cousins, and went upstairs, turned on the laptop, and talked to my baby <3 I called my dad, and told him to get me food on his way back, he came back at 1, gave me the food, and said he was going to a club with the guys. At 3 I called it a night.

The following morning, which was yesterday, I woke up at 10.30, showered, brushed my teeth, got dressed, blow dried my hair. Me and my dad checked out, and we went to his friends gallery, my cousin met us there, and me and my cousin went to ABC. My dad met up with us, an hour later, and I went to do my hair, and nails! I love how everyone has manicured hands and feet there! It shows that they know how to take care of themselves. We walked around for a bit, we said goodbye to my cousin, and went to rue de hamra! We got shawarma from barbar! The best Shawarma place! Then we bought CD's and headed to the airport. I really didn't want to come back to Kuwait. I love it and all, but really I prefer my country.

Yeah, so that was Lebanon, until next time!

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Dear Diary…

I woke up today, by the sound of my stupid phone…

"Going back to the corner where I first saw you…" the script kept singing, until I woke up, and answered the phone…

It was him, I smiled to myself, "good morning sleepyhead! Yalla honey, wake up, so you sleep early tonight" 7abeebi he cares <3

I woke up, washed my face and brushed my teeth, went to the living room to see who was there, my sister was sitting on the couch, watching a movie or something, I didn't pay much attention to what she was watching, I told her good morning, and asked how her exam was, she just started her IG's and she's very stressed out.

A few minutes later my mom, came in, all dressed up, I kissed her good morning, and sat with her for a while, and then she said that she's going to work, I don't really know why she goes, she leaves almost all the time early!

She told me that we might go shopping today, to buy a gift for my cousin who's getting married in July, as my mom isn't going to the wedding. I'm so excited! Her wedding is going to be in Lebanon! And it's going to be by the beach *sigh* I wish we can do that here L but no, not here… we can't *rolls eyes* I'm not going to judge.

My ex H called me last week! I was in shock when I answered the phone! We ended things on bad terms, he basically called me a whore, and said that he hated me, and emotionally abused me! So yes, he called me and said that he missed me, and called to "catch up" oh my, the guy is bipolar, one day he hates me and the next day he loves me. You know, once he called me CRYING! *slaps him* BE A MAN H! BE A MAN! 7amdellah wel shekr… I told X about it, he got angry, and asked me if I felt anything, I was taken aback by the question! X and I have been together for 2 years now! How can he ask me a question like that? I told him "hell no!" he said "oh, okay" and he just stayed quiet the whole time. I got annoyed, and told him I had to go my dad is calling me and hung up. I hate it, when he asks me if I felt anything, when obviously I didn't! If I did I wouldn't have told him that H called me, my god men!

Summer is almost here! Actually I take that back, summer is here… but, the weather is D I S G U S T I N G! Yuck! I don't know why it's dusty L

"I want a brand new house on an episode of Cribs and a bathroom I can play baseball in and a king size tub big enough for ten plus me" <3 <3 I just love that song! It's awesome <3

 

Okay, I'm out of things to say ;/

 

Feedback? Please? I beg you? *goes down on her knees begging* *kisses bloggers feet"

 

P.S My teacher just called me, demanding me to go to school tomorrowL I don't want to go!

P.P.S Hugh Jackman
is HOT *eats him*

Introduction about myself

I keep typing something and deleting it I am fed up!

Hello people *wakes at the screen* so I have been reading a lot of blogs lately! And thought it would be cool if I had one too!

So I do now, I am watching sex and the city as I type, and they are the old episodes! I love it <3 <3

And you know what else I'm doing? No? Eating cookies <3 yum!! Delicious! I'm sorry if you think I'm ridiculous but I have been studying biology and well yuck.

I'm going to Lebanon on Friday!! Yay me! Be jealous! Hehe!

 

Anyways, I'm leaving now! Bye bye!