Will you think you’re all alone when no one’s there to hold your hand?

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask oh god is there some way for me to take his place
And when they say just touch and go I wish I could make it go away
But still you say

Will you think that you're all alone when no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent
I'm permanent

is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry 

 

David cook – Permanent.

 

Beautiful song! Did anyone watch American Idol? I was sort of disappointed with the results, I like Kris, don't get me wrong, but Adam has a BEAUTIFUL voice, and whatever he sings, it suits him. Did you see Simon's face? When they said Kris won?

Ha ha! Poor simon! I mean COMMON! You are on T.V LIVE! You should smile and accept the fact that they voted for Kris! Please don't judge me, I usually don't watch American Idol, but I did watch the last three or four episodes or whatever they're called! It was good!

Next topic: My boyfriend.

He's sweet, funny, and adorable! He's fun to hang out with! But there is ONE problem.

He is cheap. It gets on my nerves, I am the kind of person, who just spends money! I love spending it, he doesn't. He likes to save up money, and then he only spends it on one of the following:

• Football shirts.
  
• ART/Jazeera cards.
  
• Football shoes, training suits…
  
• ANYTHING THAT INVOLVES FOOTBALL.
  

I don't have a problem with that, really, but I would appreciate it if he would consider getting me something. I'm not asking for a Cartier diamond ring, or a Gucci bag or anything like that, but I like to be pampered every once in a while. For example, on our 18 month anniversary I got him a 55 KD fossil watch, what did I get? A thank you. So on Valentine's Day I got him nothing, hoping that he would get it, nope, he didn't, I got nothing for valentines. He's good friends with my cousin, so she asks him what he got me, and he answers "I am trying to find out what she wants." So ;* gets excited over NOTHING and in the end, she gets nothing. I cannot believe him. It's just absurd, I am a girl, I like gifts!

Secondly:

He has NO sense in fashion! He is almost 18, and he still doesn't like low waist jeans. I am not asking him to show his ass! I am asking him to buy jeans that are not so high, that his ASS looks huge! I'm sorry I'm mean, but it's the truth I am not going to lie to him, and tell him it looks good on him, when obviously it doesn't, even his friends and BROTHER make fun of him! It's the truth. He says they are comfortable! I just get angry and tell him to do whatever he wants cause I GIVE UP.

Thirdly:

His friends in university don't know that he has a girlfriend, his friends out of university don't know either, only friends that were in school know. Do you know why he doesn't want to tell him? Because he cares what people think! His parents don't know either, because they are religious. My mom knows, and all my friends do too. I feel like he just doesn't want to ruin his reputation. It's enough that he's a prude, and barely holds my hands. Ugh! Men.

Okay, I'm done ranting, in the end, I love him, and despite these things, he's amazing.

 

Next topic: friends.

I see my best friend, once a month, and if I am lucky twice! Amazing friendship right? Since she started university, she doesn't call, or ask about me. When I tell her that we should hang out she says okay, and that we will call me, in the end I don't get a reply. The next day she apologizes and says that she couldn't make it. It's funny how she changed. I hate it. I love that girl a LOT, but seriously you can't give me two hours a week? I'm not just a friend; I'm your best friend, oh well, people change.

 

Do you know what I want to do? Punch someone, because I feel like it. I miss the days when I didn't have to worry about anything, or anyone.

Until next time!